Sunday, October 12, 2014

2 Months

I didn't even realize Nick was two months old today until dinnertime. In fact, a few people at church asked me how old he is and I told them "almost two months." Interesting how time can seem to go so slowly, but then you suddenly realize how fast it's flown by. I think my little man looked pretty schnazzy in his tie at church. He was able to keep up his sharp appearance until I was ready to put him in his jammies- then he promptly pooped up his back and all over his outfit. Thanks for waiting until the end of the day, bud.

At two months Nick:

Still eats about every 3 hours. Sleeps well most nights. Is more fussy, but still a good baby. Loves being swaddled. Still takes the binky, but other times gets mad when you try to give it to him. Can fit into some of his newborn clothes, and some 0-3 month clothes are way too big. But most of the time the 0-3 works great. Graduated to size 2 diapers yesterday. Has the most perfect, adorable smile. Starting to coo and giggle when we make faces at him. At least once a day makes mommy's cheeks hurt from mutual smiling at each other. Doesn't like driving. It might be in my head, but I think he recognizes and likes mommy. Likes going outside. Some days sleeps most of the day, and others is awake more than half of it. Still likes baths. Loves his swing.

Lila is getting more used to him. She certainly loves him. Sometimes she gets a little jealous. About a week ago I was playing with him and telling him how much I love him, and Lila asked me if I loved him more than I love her. It was sad. I have to be careful when she is around to say how cute both my kids are and how much I love them both. Then this morning Nick was crying while I was trying to do Lila's hair for church, and I told him he needed to relax because mommy needed to take care of Lila and he would have to wait. Lila said "Mommy, don't be mean to Nicky!" and then told me I should help him calm down before doing her hair. I thought it was interesting because one of the reasons I was doing it was to show her that he isn't always the one who gets the attention. She is such an amazing big sister.


 And of course, his beautiful sister.

This is What Happens When You Have a Big Sister

Thursday, October 02, 2014


Today Lila thanked me for a few things, and then she said "thank you for everything you do for me mommy!" Then she gave me a big hug. How does a three year old think to say something so thoughtful?

The last few weeks I have been trying to figure out how to make this "increased capacity to love" thing work. Everyone says when you have a new baby you are just able to love more. I must admit the first few weeks I started to disbelieve that notion. I always took it as a fact that it wouldn't be a problem. Then I would feed my baby boy and want my girl to just leave me the heck alone! I would feel so guilty that I didn't want her to be there with me. And then I would be doing something with the girl and the boy would start crying, and I would ignore him so I could focus a few more minutes on her.

Instead of feeling an increase of love, there was mostly just an increase in guilt. I loved both, but still felt like I could usually only love one at a time and so then I naturally had to neglect the other during that time.

I am happy to report that I am starting to find the right balance. Maybe it's because I am feeling physically more capable and not quite as exhausted (though still very tired), but at the very least I find more enjoyment in being with my babies. I am having more fun playing with Nick even though he doesn't really play back very well. I am again able to play and have fun with Lila as if she is the only thing in the world. The other day I was holding Nick, and Lila and I ran circles around the house laughing and giggling and just loving every minute. That was great because I was with them both.

Having two kids is hard. But I am finally starting to see how rewarding it is to add to your family. Even though finding the right adjustment has been very difficult, it has also brought a lot of unanticipated joy. Seeing Lila love her brother is more precious than I ever imagined. Thinking of all of us as a family together is beyond wonderful. And I know as time goes on, the time we spend together will be more and more meaningful because both of these angels are in my life.

I don't know if this makes sense to anyone else because sometimes I ramble incoherently. But if you don't yet have two kids, I have to say you are justified in being worried about how a second child will affect your relationship with your first. It is hard and scary and you might feel a little bit of guilt. But it is possible for all the good things people say about second children to come true. Work hard, be patient, and don't kick yourself too hard. It's worth it.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Nick's Smile

We decided that September 19th was Nick's official "he can smile!" day. He smiled at me a few times before that, but this was the first time we could actually elicit it from him, then repeat the experiment and get the same results. I suppose that is how science works, right? So without further ado, please enjoy. The first few are the shots we crazy parents took trying to capture his "first" smiles.

 I love his little half smile.

 This one is my favorite so far:

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Happy Wedding, Shelly!

So my sister got married. She basically did all the planning and preparation herself, and created a perfect day that completely suited her. Her new husband is a sweet guy that we are excited to have as part of our family. It was fun because all of my sisters were in town for the two weeks before the wedding, so we all got to play together and get ready for the big day. Of course, it did have the downside of Shelly being insanely busy and not able to do as much stuff with us, but it was still a good time.

At the temple, Nikenzie and her friends watched all the cute little kids who were decked out in these adorable skirts or cute red-checkered bow ties. We did a picture later with all the kids between both families, which was just the kids from our family. The Burbidge side had zero. Good thing we were there to amp up the cute factor!

When we were all waiting, my grandpa Faber disappeared. He told my grandma that he was going to get something out of the car, but then walked in a different direction from where the car was. We had men wandering all over the parking lot looking for him. Luckily, he was found. But I don't have a picture of him. But I do have one of grandma! Other than that, the wait for the bride and groom to come out was uneventful.

Then came the happy couple! Aren't they good-looking?

All the kids

The bride + siblings

The bride + sisters + Mom + cardboard Lauren
 Then to the luncheon. It was very nice. this is where I got to do most of my helping out, since I was 9 months pregnant and couldn't really help with the reception stuff much. I was glad to be able to contribute!

The families and some friends helped set up the reception. It was a carnival theme and turned out perfectly. Complete with a live band and photo booth. Can't ask for much more. Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures of the fun stuff like said band, or the corn dog truck, cotton candy, snow cones, brownie balls, and popcorn. It would have just made you jealous anyway. But there is a picture of Lila'a balloon hat.

Congrats to my beautiful sister Shelly. I am so happy for you and proud of the great choice you made to marry Matt. Love you!

A Little Man in a White Suit

We blessed Baby Nick when he was just about four weeks old. We didn't want a lot of hoopla, so we basically just invited our immediate families. We didn't have any special get-together afterwards or anything. Just the simplicity of a few of our loved ones sharing in a special moment. If these blessings are any indicator, our boy will be physically healthy and a scholar of the gospel. A mother can only hope and pray for those blessings in the lives of their kids. We didn't really get a lot of pictures with other people, but I tried to take a few of just him. I'm no photographer, so it's a good thing my subject was cute to make up for it.