Monday, March 31, 2014

A New Venture

So I have read a lot of things online lately (well, probably not that many) that have made me think a lot. I wish that I was able to have discussion groups on everything. I really love to hear other people's points of view in kind, respectful ways. Which is why it is unfortunate that I don't get many opportunities to talk to people. When I read posts and comments, they are so often rude and unforgiving. I actually want to know where other people are coming from when I talk to them, rather than pretend to hear what they have to say so I can "correct" them.

So I decided to put some of my thoughts down. Most of the things I read about pertain to the LDS church, so I imagine most of my thoughts will be on topics of interest to this group. But not all of them. I have now written two posts. The first to try and explain what I am trying to do, and the second is a first attempt at actually doing it.

I guess we'll see how it goes. I share about it here because I hope that anyone who reads my blog knows me and would be willing to talk to me about things if they disagree. Who knows, you might change my mind!

If you are interested, here is the link.

http://uncomments.blogspot.com

Addendum on April 1: I was thinking of other things I wanted to write about and there were so many on different topics I decided to change things up a bit. I changed the link above to reflect my new url and have moved over my first actual post so you can view it there. It is now more general instead of focusing on being LDS. thanks! (oh, and no April Fool's, just fyi).

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Pulled Over

I feel really bad about contributing to a sad situation. I borrowed my parent's van on Monday to move some big stuff. I noticed that their registration was expired. The date on it was 12/13. I figured they just must have forgotten to put the sticker on. I was going to mention it to them. But then I didn't.

Well, my aunt Laurine is in town so has been driving this extra, expired car. She got pulled over. And I was wrong, the registration hadn't been kept up. That's what happens when a postcard never comes and you rarely drive a car. Remember how Todd got pulled over last year since we didn't put our sticker on? Those pesky things.

Luckily, she was let off with a warning since she's from out of town and it wasn't her car. My mom mentioned that it is kind of lucky because in only a few weeks the registration would be 90 days overdue and being pulled over would mean being impounded. Eek!

Last night we all drove down to Santaquin for my grandpa's 85th birthday party. On the way down I was told the story of Aunt Laurine and the policeman. Of course, my parents are very responsible so as soon as they figured out that they were overdue my dad took the car in to be inspected and renewed the registration. The paper was on the back window to prove it. I felt really bad I hadn't said something earlier. Then Laurine could have been spared a frightening incident.

Funny thing is, I drove the van home that night, and guess what?! Pulling onto the freeway the cop behind me started flashing his lights. I think it was the first time in my life that I wasn't freaking out getting pulled over. (I mean, it was the first time ever being pulled over.) The cop just came up and said he hadn't seen the paper registration in the window. He did ask if I had the sticker, but I explained that my it was my parent's car and they had just renewed it since they don't drive it very often. And off I went!

Later my brother texted me asking if the cop gave me a ticket. That made it even better. He had seen me stuck on the side of the road! I was glad to pique the Darnica's interest in what was going on with me at that moment. I was glad to report it was all just a mistake!

As a side note, when the cop left Lila asked why that guy was in the road. She is so observant.

Another Blow to My Nursing Pride

Not really. But it sort of feels like it. I need to recertify my ACLS (advanced cardiac life support) this month. If I let it lapse, I will have to do a 2 day course in the future instead of the one day refresher course. I had really hoped that I would have found a job by now. Don't get me wrong, I understand it is pretty impossible to find a job when you aren't looking. But something I heard has made me afraid to look for jobs within Intermountain. Something that makes me think my old manager would discourage others from hiring me. Which is totally unfounded by the way. And I don't know if I want to find a job outside of Intermountain. There would be so much more to learn- a new computer system, new protocols, new training styles, all new people. So I have sort of just sat on the whole thing.

And now it is going to cost me $125 to learn what medications to give during CPR, even though I will never be able to use them. (Probably). It has been almost a year since I worked a shift, and I am worried that it won't be long until all of my skills have been forgotten. I wonder if it will be another 30 years until I work again. I guess we'll see. By then I will be so old and unexperienced no one could possibly want me! haha. Good thing I have my kids to love and keep me company. Hopefully over time I will forget all that other junk.


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

My Dear Aubrey

Today was a very special day. One of my very good friends Aubrey Rees tied the knot with a great guy.

The day I met Aubrey was my first day orienting on my unit at my new job. It happened to be my first job as a nurse. The charge nurse asked Aubrey to orient me and she made it clear that she didn't really want to do it. She was only a few months into her own nursing career and so was still learning herself, but of course I took the lack of enthusiasm personally. Luckily, it didn't last too long.

We both worked nights at first and became good friends. Then later we both worked days and it was awesome! She is such a great nurse and I came to be very excited to see her name on the board when I came to work.

We share a love for Chick-fil-A and now often eat lunch there together to stay in touch since I'm not working anymore, and even if I was she has moved on to work on an ICU floor instead (because she is so talented).

Anyway, I was so excited to share this special day with her. Unfortunately, it turned out to be a pretty awful day for me with waking up super early, forgetting my temple recommend, not being able to bring Todd to the luncheon as I had planned, and getting lost on the way to the reception. Among other things like feeling unattractive in my clothes that don't fit well but people are still saying "What!? I couldn't even tell that you were pregnant!"

But just thinking about how happy I was made me tear up several times. She was a beautiful bride (don't have proof yet because one of the stinky things I did was forget my camera and my phone is no good for pictures). I felt so lucky to be in the sealing ceremony with her, and just felt so happy to see her sealed to her sweetheart forever (thanks to my bishop for answering his phone so I could get in).

It was almost like there was some unseen force trying to distract me from the wonderful day that it was with all the stinky things happening. But I was undeterred! I just can't be any happier for a wonderful gal who deserves to be treated like a princess for the rest of forever. I hope she is able to find all the joy in the world and more through her new "relationship status."

I love you Aubrey, congratulations!

(Picture stolen from someone elses Facebook post)

Sunday, March 02, 2014

Merry Christmas

Christmas last year was a very emotional but wonderful time. I know it is a bit late for Christmas post, but there is a reason for my stalling so you will have to deal with it. The very unfortunate thing is our lack of record of the event. Todd has always spent most of his time video taping on Christmas Day, because one of his favorite Christmas traditions is to spend the evening of Christmas Eve watching old Christmas home videos. Well, the brand new Ipad I bought him for his birthday at the end of November just completely died. Gave out. Broke. The dude at the store told us there was nothing he could do to get the videos off before trading it in under the warranty. Todd had backed up everything else with occasional connections to his computer, but I guess the videos have to be saved manually, so none of them were saved. It is pretty tragic. So sorry I don't have much to share. But I do want to record a bit for our memories.

First of all, Todd dragged us all the way out to Philadelphia. I wasn't super excited to go, mostly because I had just flown out there twice recently and Lila is horrible on the plane and all the packing and stress and stuff. Also, it is nice to be home for the holidays. For Todd, that meant going to Philly. For me, that would have meant staying in Utah. But I love my in-laws and I knew it would mean a lot to everyone if we were together for the first Christmas without my father-in-law, Nick. So we booked the flights and packed our bags. (I hope no one is offended by my honesty here. I very much love Todd's side of the family and being with them.)

One of the things that happened when we got there is that I felt absolutely awful. I know it's cliche, but I really felt like I had been run over by a semi. I was exhausted, sick, got a lot of headaches, and wasn't in the mood to do very much. But I tried to be a good sport. One of the really fun things that we did was have a big party with some of the friends and neighbors of those that live there. Stephanie and Kelsey put most of it together, and I was very impressed with the results.  The only pictures I have are of the two food tables. Not sure why. But we also played minute to win it games and had a sweet photo -op with silly Christmas hats and such. Also, Todd and I made out big in the white elephant exchange with and Apples to Apples game and microfiber slipper mop things to wear on our wood floor. I usually end up with something like an ugly used handbag.



This picture stolen from my sister-in-law, Lisa's blog. Thanks.

We did some other fun things like a Christmas light scavenger hunt, eating lots of delicious food, watching those old home video's, and getting each other sick. It was funny because Stephanie posted about our treat stop after the Christmas light scavenger hunt. I remember looking at it and being embarrassed that I looked pregnant in it and being so sad that I wasn't. Now looking back I think it's funny because I don't think I looked pregnant but I really was. Hormones I guess.


Todd and I had a fight the Sunday before Christmas because he was sad that I wasn't participating much in the family activities. I was spending a lot of time napping and avoiding conversation I guess. He remembered that I didn't especially want to come in the first place and thought I was mad or didn't like his family or something. So I explained to him (in a not very nice way) that I was physically ill, that I wished I could be more involved, and the main reason I did want to come was to be with his family because they are so great. I know most people don't publicize their marital arguments, but I just think this one is funny since neither of us knew why I was so sick. Or why I was so ornery.

Well, a few more days went by and we did some food shopping for the many grand feastings and last minute Christmas gifting. We literally got all of Lila's presents from my mom's house before we came out. A few beanie babies and a doll my mom said she had had in a box forever and didn't know if she would ever use it. Luckily she also got some things from Grandma Itri and her cousins, so she was happy. Todd and I didn't get much since we spent money on getting out there. But I don't really care about presents much anymore, so it was fine. Anyway. Christmas Even we did watch some of the old Christmases but I think I slept through most of it. But I was glad Todd got to participate in his favorite Christmas tradition that we don't really get to do when we are out in Utah.

The other thing we did on Christmas Eve was the Nativity. It was very low-key as I think it should be, except when no one would be a wise man. I don't think people should be forced into doing these things or doing them perfectly, but we need characters! Luckily, Scott stepped up and filled in the role, and I joined him a minute later. So it all worked out in the end. Here is the one picture I have of Brian as King Herod (a great role for him to play), Seth and Reagan over on the left who shared the role of Joseph, Lila as the angel, and Crystal as the "after" Mary. Jensen is in the picture too, but wasn't so excited about dressing up as anything. I love that we did this because Lila is still putting scarves and blankets on her head and saying "I'm Mary!" So we have gotten to talk about Jesus and his mom for a long time after. Of course, remembering Jesus Christ is the most important part about Christmas. I have actually never done a nativity with my family, so this was a first-time experience for me. I was glad to do something to to really celebrate the Savior.



Christmas Day was fun. We actually did end up getting a lot more stuff than I had anticipated, and a few things that were wonderful to get. Todd's mom made all of her sons a blanket out of Nicks old shirts and ties, with sports themed fleece on the back. They are all so beautiful and meaningful and Todd uses his every day. Rob and Stephanie got us in the gift exchange and gave us a beautiful frame that says "When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure." It has several pictures of Nick in it, including one from our wedding day. Todd and I both broke into tears when we opened it. There were a lot of other sweet moments as well. For sure in those moments I was so glad that we did end up coming out.

Here are a few pictures from Christmas morning. We opened presents with just my mother-in-law Margie, brothers-in-law Kyle, Brian, and Dan + Kelsey his wife. We don't really have any pictures of us because of the whole video thing. The one with Todd that is blurry and the one of the side of my head are the only pictures we have of me and Todd. We have a few more of Lila because she liked to get in the way when other people were opening presents, and helping Grandma Itri open her presents.









After morning presents, Scott, Lisa and family joined us for breakfast. Then we all went over to visit Nick's grave. It was a really sad but nice thing for us to do. It was nice for us all to have a chance to be there together. We definitely missed Nick the entire holiday season, both when we were in Utah and back in Philadelphia. There were some times when it was really hard to be without him. It was just comforting that we could all remember him together and that the family has all done such sweet things to help us all keep a part of him with us as we go throughout our lives.





After we got back to the house, I wanted to go take a nap. I was completely exhausted. Todd asked me to take a pregnancy test but I didn't want to waste my time with it. I was too tired and I was so bored of the constantly negative result I didn't want to deal with it. But he really wanted me to, so I peed in a cup and told him he could run a test if he wanted to. When he came in to wake me only 3 minutes later when I was already just about asleep, I was a little intrigued and probably annoyed. I don't remember what he said. I think it was something like "Is this what I think it is?" And lo and behold, there were two lines. I just rolled back over and started crying. Todd stayed and held me for a little while while we let the news sink in. This little kid will forever be remembered as our Christmas miracle. And he truly is.

We had prime rib for dinner that night, and I was glad that I like my meat well done so it didn't look suspicious that I wasn't eating the meat with everyone else. Kelsey was the only one eating well done with me, because she just had a baby last week (so was pregnant at the time). Todd was already getting paranoid about whether or not my food was cooked well enough. As a side note, he has seen me eat cookie dough a few times and didn't even say anything. When I was pregnant with Lila he once tried to pounce on me for licking a spoon from a cookie dough bowl.


So this post honestly has almost all the pictures we took while we were there. There were some other things we did, but I have no proof of them so my squishy pregnant mind has already forgotten. And I feel that I have a legitimate excuse for not remembering to take hardly any pictures.

In case anyone is wondering, I didn't tell anyone about our precious little addition until we had a confirmation ultrasound. I remained in disbelief that it could be real, plus I had no idea when my due date would be since my body doesn't go by the usual method of calculating. When we first saw him he was dancing for us. I assume because he was so happy to see us (even though he couldn't. We could only see him.) And he was very nice because in his joy he stretched his little legs out and gave us a measurement that put me two days further along than the first measurements did. This kid is already making my life easier. I think he will be a good little boy. I was 12 weeks, 2 days at the time of our first ultrasound. Which meant we could tell the world as soon as we wanted. Todd texted his family that day, and I told my family when we all got together that Sunday for dinner. Except that I called my grandparents to make sure they were coming (so I could tell them over the phone of they were not). Well at the end of our phone call Lila wanted to chat too. So I gave her the phone. The first thing she said was "I'm going to be a good big sister to our new baby!" Beans spilled.

And for those of you who read my last post, Lila now hugs my tummy in the morning and says "I love your baby boy." But she also asks frequently when I will have a baby girl.


Monday, February 24, 2014

Congratulations

I have been a little sad lately because I think that no one ever looks at my blog. So Here is a present for any avid readers out there, which there might not be any.

We are having a baby boy.

Lila is still in denial. She has been saying we would have a baby girl at least since last August. Obviously, we weren't even pregnant then. That was just about the time we started telling Lila that we wanted to have another baby. She had just about the saddest face on during the ultrasound today when we told her it was a boy. Big, long frowny face. She was in total denial.

We went straight to the grocery store after the ultrasound. Lila was saying things like "the baby is a girl" and if we asked her if she would love her baby brother she said no. Finally, on our way out she asked for some Oreo cookies. I told her if she was happy that my baby was a boy, she could have some. Well, that worked. She said she was happy.

She isn't as mad now as she was at first, but she has been pulling off pictures from the fridge of families that she colored in nursery, and trying to prove to me that the baby is a girl by pointing to the pictures and saying "see mommy, the baby is a girl!"I'm sure she'll get used to it eventually. Todd of course is elated and I am pretty dang happy about it too. Although after 21 months of trying, I would have been happy no matter what.


Sunday, February 23, 2014

Lila's Singing Abilities

I have seen some video shots of little kids singing pretty amazing. Totally on key, belting things out, knowing every word. Well, Lila sure isn't one of those kids. But her singing makes me no less than giddy with joy.

One of my almost favorite traditions is singing to her before she goes to bed. It might be my favorite if I wasn't so tired by that point, and if she would hold still. Even a little. But besides that, it's always a good time. We used to have these long banters about who's turn it is to choose a song. She didn't really seem to get the concept. After a while we got into a habit similar to this:

Me: It's your turn to choose a song Lila. What should I sing?
Lila: No, it's your turn to pick.
Me: Ok. What song should I pick?
Lila: How 'bout.... The Jesus Song

Or she would pick some other song that she likes. Now when I sit down and first ask her what song she wants she just says "You pick the [insert name] song." Up until about four days ago it was always the Savior song. But now she has started with the Mermaid song. That's Part of Your World from the Little Mermaid. I try to sing mostly Primary songs and a few hymns, but sometimes we throw in another one too.

The thing that prompted this post was Sacrament meeting today. We sang I Am a Child of God as our opening hymn. Since I have sung it several times, I asked Lila if she would sing with us. She said yes but didn't really sing anything. Finally, the third and final time through the chorus, she chimed in. Leaving out a few words here and there, she was singing loudly and a little off key, but following the ups and downs pretty well and getting all the words that she actually sang right. The sister sitting behind us was laughing at how cute she is. Then she also tried to sing with us during the Sacrament Hymn, but I was laughing so hard at her jibberish and complete random choice of notes that I had to ask her to be quiet so it wouldn't take away from the spirit of the sacrament. Don't worry, I was gentle about it and made sure she didn't feel like she was in trouble.

Tonight after singing the Mermaid song and a few from Jake and the Neverland Pirates, I told Lila to pick some church songs. I don't think she knows that the ones we usually sing are church songs, so she started picking ones from nursery. If You Chance to Meet a Frown and Jesus Wants Me for a Sunbeam. She was singing along pretty well with those too.

I just love hearing her sing. Music has always been very important to me and been able to touch me in ways words just can't. I hope her enthusiasm for singing will translate to a love of music as she grows. I love when we watch Music and the Spoken Word on Sunday mornings and she recognizes some of her bedtime songs. It is just so fun.

Monday, February 17, 2014

About our Three-Year Old

I have been thinking about this for at least a month now. I intended on writing a few things down when I thought of them, but of course I did not. So I will likely add to this post later as I remember some of them. But for the meantime, Lila turned three! Here are some things about her:

LOVES Jake and the Neverland Pirates. Favorite food is pasta. Likes putting her feet all over everything. Especially me. Best friends are Kayla Ho and Emma DeGering. Loves going to nursery. Is becoming a great singer. Likes to ask the same question over and over and over. Is terrified of doors being closed on her. Also terrified of mommy leaving her. Knows that Grandma Itri lives in Philadelphia. Doesn't know where her own house is. When she plays Jake, she likes to pretend to be Izzy. When she pretends to be Izzy, you must use her name in every sentence, and will not respond to her real name. (Do you want a banana, Izzy? Should I peel it for you Izzy?) Loves playing in the bathtub but hates getting washed off. Hates pooping and holds it in as long as she can. Almost never has a pee accident, but mom and dad sometimes have to get her on the potty before it's too late. Rarely sleeps through the night. Likes to help mommy clean (as in gloves and/or wiping things) the house and cook. One of her favorites is cleaning the toilet. Doesn't like to pick up stuff. When we cook and she wants to keep helping she asks "Is there anymore recipe?" Knows who Jesus Christ is. Knows who our Prophet is- President Monson. Knows that we love Jesus and listen to the prophet. Loves the temple and gets excited when mommy and daddy go. Favorite bedtime song is "If the Savior Stood Beside me." Requests it first every night by asking for "The Savior Song." Then usually asks for it again. Would sleep with mom and dad every night if we would let her. Knows where things are when we are driving. Points out when she we are going the wrong way to the place she wants to go. Loves to "stomp" in the snow. Only counts to 12. Knows some of her letters. While I always love her and think she is the best thing ever, she has been frustrating lately as she tests limits and gets away with as much as she can. Little stinker.

Things she gets from momma:
Says "sure!" and calls lots of things beautiful
Likes to have her hair pretty and actually lets me do it
Gets concerned whenever anyone is sad
Loves Krispy Kreme Donuts and Chick-fil-A (calls it Chick-a-flay)
Likes school (or at least asks to go all the time)
Whines a lot
Tells other people what to do (I have worked on that and try not to do it anymore. But sometimes it's still tempting!)

Things she gets from dada:
Tries to make things fair for everyone
Loves her family above everyone else and defends them
Loves the Mormon Tabernacle Choir
Athletic ability
Her temper
Stubborn
Passionate
Love of pasta
Addicted to TV